Takamaru is very conflicted

Takamaru speaks,

My companions , it has been weighing heavily upon me. I feel I cannot continue on with the Sea Dogs. I feel that I am abandoning my familial responsibilities. I have gained much in the last year or so. Much wealth , many great magic. But what have I had a chance to do to move forward with my desires. I am still seeking the members of my family that remain that are strewn across Krinthius. If have made no contacts , even finding others who shar the worship of my god Hachiman. I understand that we do The Wicked Wench's bidding, and we have been permitted at times to accomplish some small tasks the group has pushed for Viceak , rescuing the dwarves. For Taladel obtaining his holy weapon and furthering the cause of his goddess. I understand that my requests may seem trivial and uninteresting to many of you. That is why I have not pushed as strongly because it seems it would be a split vote. I didn't feel it was right to force my will upon you (trump use). As much as I do enjoy your company. I feel it is my best interest to depart , I have spoken privately with Captain Bluebeard and Queenie Red about filling the role that is needed at Smugglers Cove.

They thought it was an excellent idea and will allow me more freedom than I have now as a member of the Sea Dogs

This is a very tough decision for me. I struggle internally , I see myself as a failure and dishonor my family if I do not make some moves to change and right the wrongs that were committed against us. I hope you can understand my dilemma and if you cannot support my decision at least you will respect it.